Depression is a sneaky illness. It arrives with no warning, leaving you feeling hopeless and distraught. You feel completely empty, moving through life like a zombie. Here is a quote that explains it: “People think depression is sadness. People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, being numb to life. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again.” Depression can affect many of us and even though we experience depression differently here are 10+ things people with depression understand all too well:
- Triumph: There is no such thing as small victories, completing a simple task is a big victory. Depression makes everyday responsibilities harder to complete.
- Energy Zaps: Being depressed means you lack energy. There is no amount of sleep that can make you feel better. It’s a permanent state of exhaustion, that coffee can’t help with.
- Forgetfulness: Depression comes with a cloudy memory. This means you forget everything, from where you put your keys, to what you did yesterday. You can’t seem to retain anything. It can get so bad, that you may not remember what someone told you a second ago.
- Disorganization: Some people who are depressed have a messy room and home. Let’s be honest putting your dirty clothes in the hamper is a big task. Your room may be so messy that you hop around because everything is on the floor. It’s hard to maintain a clean house because it seems daunting.
- Poor hygiene: When it’s a severe episode of depression showering and keeping up with your hygiene seems impossible. Days may pass by before you take your next shower. This doesn’t mean you don’t care about feeling fresh and smelling good. It’s just too exhausting.
- Little or too much sleep: You can sleep for 1 hour or all day and still feel drained. There is no amount of sleep that can replenish your energy level. You either stay up all night and think of terrible things or you sleep all night and day.
- Low self-esteem: Depression makes you view yourself in a negative light. You feel self-hatred, unsmart, pathetic, ugly, and much more. A person may compliment you, and not believe them. (related: negative thinking)
- Changes in appetite: When depressed you either lose your appetite or eat everything that is in the fridge and pantry. Depression can make you feel empty to such an extent, that you try to fill in the void with food. (related: mood boosting foods)
- Loneliness: Depression makes you lonely. You can be with your friends and feel detached. You may also be in a relationship and feel alone even when your partner is reassuring you of their love.
- Distraction: Concentrating is difficult. It’s hard to maintain track of school and work. This doesn’t mean you don’t care, it’s that you can’t keep track of your thoughts and tasks. It can get so bad, that when someone is speaking to you, your brain is somewhere else.
- Physical symptoms: Many people believe that depression is only a mental disorder, but in fact it comes with physical pain. For instance: backache, headache, indigestion, nausea, and muscle fatigue. This combined with the lack of energy makes it worse to complete your responsibilities. Your whole body feels heavy.
- Loss of interest: You no longer find your favorite hobbies and activities fun anymore. It’s now a drag and hanging out with friends can be overwhelming. Even intimate moments with your loved one isn’t as exciting as it used to be. Depression can affect you so much, that television no longer holds your interest, so you stare at the wall instead.
- Bad communication: It’s difficult to explain depression. It can be challenging to put into words, especially when its to someone who has never experienced depression before. At times you can be afraid of describing what you are going through because of stigma.
Depression can leave you feeling helpless, but don’t lose hope. It does get better even when it feels like it won’t. If you feel stuck or like it’s getting worse, then don’t hesitate to ask for help. Do you agree with these? What other depressive experiences have you had? Let me know in the comment section below.
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