Before I conquered my depression. I used to be self-centered. You see, I was so immersed in my dark inner world that I could not put myself in other people’s shoes. Although, when I did see people in trouble or hurting, I would go out of my way to help. I did so because I always thought to myself that I would love it if people helped me. It was as if I was missing a crucial part of myself. I was trapped in a gray area. I would help anyone who reached out because I know what it means to suffer, even though I couldn’t grasp what they were going through.
Every day I was trying to climb out of my darkness. Hoping to relate to others. I was dying to understand what others were going through. But I was so consumed by my hatred of the world, that I just couldn’t. It wasn’t till I hit rock bottom, when a change in me started to occur. As I was climbing out of the void, light started illuminating my path. The fog in my mind lifted and I started to see the world and people differently. I no longer was comparing misery or putting self-pity.
When I began to heal, that barrier that didn’t permit me to understand others was raised. I wasn’t trapped in the gray area any longer. Life was vibrant now and full of amazing feelings I never experienced before. At first connecting with people was terrifying, but after I did it felt gratifying. Not giving room to suffering, allowed me to connect towards others in ways I couldn’t of imagine.
Depression ingrained in me misery, loneliness, hopelessness, desperation, discouragement, and wanting to die. That old part of me, allows me to see the world differently. I notice things most people don’t. I can see hurt in people eyes and see little details that people hide with fake smiles. I notice these things because I was like that once in my life. Depression gave me the ability to relate to others because my experience even though dreadful, was insightful.
Has this happened to you? What other lessons have you learned from depression? Let me know in the comment section below. Also, feel free to read: Depression Almost Took My Life & Loving A Depressed Person: Here’s What You Need to Know