Dear, Suicidal Person:
Depression marks on you, leaving a void in your heart and soul. Feeling lost and confused, it seems like part of you is missing. Depression tries to convince you that suicide is the best option. Even after coming out of a major depressive episode. It somehow stays in the back of your mind. Its as if the option for suicide is ingrained to you. It’s a constant, exhausting battle.
Your brain ends up spewing toxic thoughts 24/7. For example, you think, “Why try? Just kill yourself” or “Soon this happiness will fade, end it.” Basically, your mind tries to sabotage every good situation. Blinding you into thinking that life won’t get any better and that the suffering will last an eternity. You end up feeling helpless and living life without hope is dangerous.
There is an intense fear when you are considering suicide or have attempted it in the past. It’s so terrifying that you may end up looking for a home in others. Although, it is essential to surround yourself with people who truly care. Putting your personal happiness in the hands of others will leave you feeling disappointed.
Suicide may seem like the answer, it isn’t. You may be tired of hearing this, but the pain is temporary. Take my word, as someone who has dealt with depression in the past and attempted suicide on multiple occasions. I won’t lie to you, it won’t be easy, but it isn’t impossible. With help you can overcome anything. Life, this world, the universe, is breath taking! You must be willing to look past the invisible blindfold over your eyes.
The brain is designed to protect you and to keep you from suffering, it will also stray you away from happiness. Don’t let it, fight. See yourself as a survivor and not a victim. Holding onto the past will no longer serve you. Seeing the world differently is scary. Happiness will feel weird at first. Discovering your passion and striving for your goals again can feel threatening. But I can assure you, if you push even in the darkest of days. You will come out victorious.
Don’t feel discouraged when you take a couple of steps back in your journey. Erase the notion that recovery is a straight line. There will be days when depression appears to comeback stronger and louder. Don’t listen to it, especially the lie about suicide. You can win this fight. A long as your willing to put on a fight. No one can save you, but yourself. Family and friends can hold you up, but they can’t fight this for you.
Suicide takes 800,000 lives, globally. You don’t have to be another statistic. I could have been one, but after feeling happiness, compassion, and inner love. I now know, life is beautiful and worth it. I implore you to join me on the millions of other people fighting for recovery.
With much love,
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